I'm sure you are wondering why I have not blogged for a several weeks...Well sometimes life can send unexpected detours.... In the past couple of months I have gone through several changes I could not explain I just knew inside something did not feel right... I tried to be positive but I constantly felt depressed and tired...When I went to NY with my husband I thought for sure I would find that spark of energy again. That motivation and positive feeling... It was when we returned I finally learned what was happening to my body, I finally have some answers. Just not sure what to expect next. Before we left for NY I noticed my neck was swollen, it was very concerning but at the same time I felt maybe I was just over reacting. So I forgot about it and went on an amazing vacation with my wonderful husband Jim.However the day we returned from NY I started feeling sick. After a few days home I became even more ill so I went to see my dr this last Tuesday. I think his reaction was very concerning when he noticed my neck and told me it was too swollen, he mentioned my thyroid and said it needs to come out.. He sent me to get and Ultra sound yesterday and that is when I learned some concerning news... They found 5 Nodules attached to my thyroid, the only way to explain them is to compare them to tumors or growths. I find out Monday if I need a biopsy/radiation treatment or surgery... I am scared of having Cancer in my thyroid, my grandmother Ruth Whitten had it and she was just fine. Just saying the word Cancer can feel so scary! I attached some photos of my ultra sound and thought maybe if I blog about this I might realize this is nothing to be scared of.I've cried allot today I am scared. lots of people tell me if you have cancer then the thyroid is the right place to have it. Why do I feel so scared then? I should relax right? this is crazy
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