I am worth more then a label

I would say it has been several years since I would love to have my picture taken. Any time our family would spend time together, I would avoid the camera.  I do not like the way I look on the outside. I often would tell myself I want to make a change. Then I would loose the energy and continue down a lonely road of eating and drinking everything I knew inside was so wrong to share with my body.  Then one day after having so many moments of aches and pains in my knees and joints I realized I really do need to show more love and kindness to myself.  I met with my dr a month ago weighing in at 208 lb's* wow, I cannot believe I just shared how much I have gained in my life. This is the largest I have been. I could have felt really sad and helpless, Instead I asked my Dr what can I do to make changes in my life. He mentioned a website I should try. Its called "Myfitnesspal.com" I went home and decided I would start working out. I began going to the gym and walking. I also decided to start strengthening my knees with the bike. Now I new if I did not make a change with my body my health could only get worse! after a couple of week working out and cutting down on soda. That was the toughest part! I could go through at least 12 cans if not more a day of pepsi, never drinking water. So as you can imagine giving soda up was truly a challenge. But I did it :) I noticed I was having more energy. Its a good start. Then one day I realized I need to do more. So I signed onto my computer and decided to check out this website my dr told me about. I do not know how I ended up on another website called "Beyond Diet" But I do believe it was the best thing to happen to me.  I spent a couple hours learning all I could about the foods I have always taken short cut to eat and feed my family. I had no Idea why they were so wrong for me, by taking these short cuts I have contributed to my weight gain and many health problems. So I started the diet, no not diet, I started to make changes in my life!   Its now 2 weeks later and I have lost 10LB's*! Not only that but I have started changing what I feed my family. I know this is the best thing to ever happen to me!
I can do this!!!! I will do this!!!!

This picture I added to this blog, I really do not like, but I know if I place it here I can remind myself why I am making these changes. I want to have courage and not be afraid any longer about how I look and feel. I want to prove to myself that I am worth more Then how I have always seen myself. So this photo I have always tried to hide. I would of course find photos from years ago when I was thiner, I would lie to myself and not admit the truth. So here is the truth "I AM FAT!!!!!" But I am worth more then that label. I hope you will enjoy this journey with me! With my will power and any support I receive I can change my life! I will change my life!!!